All in Good Time

It’s amazing what some time and space can do for a gal.

I more or less gave up on blogging quite some time ago because there were just too many things happening in my life that I wasn’t comfortable with. I had plenty of things to be happy about, but I was also dealing with a number of sources of stress. Some of those have gone away, others haven’t, but overall I think it’s safe to say that I’m in a much better place now than I was then.

2014-08-01 18.54.15It feels good to be back. I feel like this is a homecoming of sorts – I enjoyed blogging. It’s a tiny piece of creativity in what is an otherwise largely mundane life (though I like it like that!) and it allows me to share with family, friends and complete strangers on the Internet. I’m still working on feeling centered and happy, so I hope you don’t mind my rambles. I missed you, I missed this, and I definitely missed plastering my corner of the web with selfies :)



The Cool Thing to Do

I’ve reached that point in my (not-so-long) life where it seems like everyone is getting engaged, married, or having babies.

It’s giving me anxiety.

No, seriously. I get a little panicked when I see people that I’ve known since the seventh grade getting married. They’re marrying people that they’ve been dating for as long as Jarrod and I have been together, sometimes even less! All our friends joke that we’ll be getting married and having babies soon. I’ll admit, it would be super fun to plan a wedding (and who doesn’t want the world’s best excuse to go on extended shopping trips?), but I just don’t understand what the rush is. I’m 23… I know nothing about life! I have no idea where I’ll be living a year from now.  I’m very much not interested in being responsible for another human being, so I doubt that children will be appearing on the horizon for a long while (so you can relax, Mama).

I sometimes wonder if there’s something wrong with me that I don’t have a strong compulsion to get married young. I’ve never felt like I would be a young bride – 28 has always had a good ring to it. It seems like everyone I know is ready to put a ring on it ASAP. All Jarrod’s friends are exactly opposite this, of course, but they’re primarily men so I feel like they’re probably not the best focus group.

Don’t get me wrong about all of this. I’ve been planning my dream wedding since I was 12 and can tell you exactly what kind of dress I think I’ll wear. I’ve been to Blue Nile and designed this beaut:

I have exceptional taste, if I say so myself…

I also love the idea of a vintage engagement ring – I love that the ring has its own story and that you’re giving a second life to a ring. That, and they just don’t make ’em like they used to. A great source for window shopping that I’ve found: Antique Engagement Rings

Isn’t that stunning?

The thing is, at the end of the day, it’s a piece of jewellery. It’s also one hell of a promise to be making when you’re still learning about yourself and doing a lot of growing up! I have changed so much since I was 19, so I can only imagine that I’ll be a very different person still in another few years. It seems unfair to promise anything right now, you know?

In case you couldn’t tell, marriage and life promising confuses the heck out of me. Which is a good sign that I’m not ready quite yet, don’t you think?