Let Me Hear Your Body Talk

I started working with a personal trainer a year ago. It has, to date, been some of the best money I have ever spent. It feels frivolous at times to admit that I have spent thousands of dollars on how I look, but you know what? I would never, ever be where I am now if not for the wonderful women that I’ve worked with over the past year.

I can’t remember a time in the past where I felt great about how my body looked. I was, at best, ambivalent about it. This is still a work in progress, but I am, for the most part, truly happy with myself. My stomach may not be flat, but I have muscles. Actual, visible, functional muscles. My (new) boyfriend calls me quadzilla – lovingly. I’m so proud of what I’m able to do with my body that it matters less and less what it looks like. Instead of focusing on how flat (or not) my abs are, I choose to focus on growing my baby triceps and increasing the weight on my squats.

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Am I vain? 100%. I want to look and feel good in my clothes, and I especially want to look and feel good without them. This past weekend, I lounged all day in my bikini. And it felt fantastic.

The point I’m trying to make here is that anyone can find a path to the results they’re looking for. Part of it is making the effort to get yourself out of that rut. Sometimes, it’s as simple as having a salad for lunch instead of a sandwich, or making dinner at home instead of getting takeout. Sometimes, it means making a serious investment in your body or your health. See a nutritionist or dietician, hire a trainer, get a counselor – whatever it is that you feel you need. If you’re not sure where to start, that’s ok. But in time, whatever you need will become pretty obvious. Just have the courage to make changes and you’ll get where you’re hoping to go.



Finding Motivation

I’ve been really slipping on a lot of things lately.  I just spent about $500 at Costco (and yes, I did need those 6 bottles of wine, thankyouverymuch), and I bought lunch twice this week.  It’s a freaking miracle that new shoes haven’t found their way into my closet yet.

I’ve also been finding it difficult to find the right kind of inspiration for getting fit.  There’s a million pictures on Tumblr and such of itty-bitty women… who are also clearly presidents of the itty-bitty-titty-committee.  That’s beautiful if that’s what you are naturally built like, but I’m really not.  Unless I went through some surgical transformations, there is no way I could ever join that club.

Of course, there’s also pictures of scary-ripped ladies.  This just doesn’t seem appealing to me… why would I want a six-pack?  If I ate anything at all, I would feel like I immediately needed to go do some crunches so I didn’t kill all my hard work with a cheeseburger.  I want to be fit, and more than that healthy, and I think that health is just as much about your mental state as your physical well being.  You know?

My motivation to eat properly is being overrun by my need to eat everything with salt in it.  This has resulted in some serious tummy bloat and discomfort.  And looking super weird in all my clothes, despite how much running and lunging I get in.  Pretty much I just feel very frustrated about everything right now.

Taking suggestions on how to get my ass in gear!